I can tell that we are gonna be friends.

I dropped you off at home last night and said goodbye. We had played make-believe explorers. We were co-pilots in the night. We used our silly voices and characters until our words were sore and tired. We had sat in silence, listening to the sound of the road. We saw a sign that said "taxidermy" and in our alerted state we assumed dead bodies were walking the cornfields. It's hard not to think we're in a scary movie sometimes.

And in that moment I realized that we were going to be friends until the day we both died.

"We would've driven for hours if K---- wasn't there" she texted me today. She was right. We would have. I would have kept on going until we got bored, tired, or scared. whichever came first.

When I think about how we can love eachother like that my heart burts in size like a balloon and then my heart lifts like a balloon and flys in the sky like one and nothing will be able to puncture my balloon.

It's strange how people come into your life like a mistake. Or how you make friends, for that matter. How you meet someone and you don't click right away and you only know eachother because you have a mutual friend in common who you both now hate with the passion of a hundred suns. That's what happened with us anyway. I can only speak for us.

And now we live in different states, different time zones, different climates. She has friends that aren't me and I have to deal with the fact that she can share her past, her secrets, her life with them now. I can't have her all for myself. It's a thought I don't like to think because sometimes it reminds that we are all really just looking for friendship and when you find one really good friend you fight like hell to keep them. And it scares me that I will lose her, basically. I would give her the world on a platter if I could.

That's what I was thinking when I dropped you off last night and you asked me if I was okay and I said I was I just had a wandering thought. And then my eyes started to fill with tears and before she could see I blinked them away and said goodbye.